a.p.p.l.e..w.o.o.'s DIY life: Love

7.7 Chinese valentine's day

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 10:13:05 GMT

7.7(8th.Augest) is Chinese Valentine's Day! Actually, i often forget this date if my DIY didn't remind me.

The date is coming soon, and the guys ask me to make rose more and more. I get messy again. The interest becomes business is a good thing, but not good as well. I can't just enjoy it but have to tense up. Care the quality of the DIY, also care the feelings of customers.

The day before yesterday, I made some peony for a lady. Maybe the leaves of flowers is too many, a same leaf near to loose. That lady was very unhappy when she found that, although she said nothing, i feel so sorry~~~

Yesterday, a crazy guy ask me make a sheaves black roses for his lover.....that is troublesome order, I have never seen the black flowers in my life. I think the black flowers just for .....,,,but not for lover. I explained this to that guy, he think the black rose is cool enought....oh,oh, i have nothing to say, let me take a risk....

My love

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 03:19:32 GMT

When i am sad, weeping
You kiss my face, my full face
Tenderly, you clear my tears, flow away.

When i am taking bath
Softly, you touch my full body
Lingeringly, splash down the drops.

When i am swimming
I like to hug you lightly
Clear the water from my body.

When i am in the hot weahter
When the sweat is full of my forehead
You always give me a cozy kiss.

Miss you
Love you
My love--colour towels
I will never leave you, for ever!

Love As An Addiction

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 02:16:47 GMT

One day, I met a German writer, I am moved by his words every time...

I think most of us know that feeling. When we deeply fall in love, our stomach feels like butterflies inside, and we suddenly have the desire to be with our beloved one all the time, for every moment until eternity. It's like an addiction, as we feel like heaven while we are with him/her, and at the times we are not, we just crave for more.

It becomes more evident as we observe ourselves how we feel when we fell in an unhappy single-sided love - something that usually will happen to all of us at least once in a lifetime and what we are afraid of so much. As long as we are with the person we love, we feel so good - just by talking or seeing him/her. And once that person is gone, we soon start to feel uncomfortable after a few hours. Our stomach feels like hurting, we feel restless, unhappy. We try to suppress that feeling maybe by using alcohol - it helps! For the moment alcohol can chase away that feelings, let you feel relaxed and maybe fall asleep... until the next morning where the old hurting feeling is back - at double intensity.

The reason for that is simple: love IS an addiction. The addiction is created by substances that our body creates by itself, imposing these intense feelings, and let us crave for more and more. We need to realize that this kind of love feelings (be it a happy mutual love or an unhappy single-sided love) are inflicted mainly by ourselves - even though that thought might appear un-romantic.

Unfortunately, over the time we are getting used to these substances, and our body will stop to produce them. Maybe we will find another person where the our body will start to generate these substances again, and it will happen again. It's difficult to influence that, as it is part of our genetic programming.

We have to fight hard to control that kind of addiction, otherwise it will take control of our entire life. We will neglect work, friends, hobbies... just because our body tells us to do so - just like a real drug addiction. We are mainly "constructed" for reproduction, and most of our body functions are optimized to do so in an efficient way. I can only give you that advice: control that addiction, always realize it's just something coming from the substances and hormones in your own body. You can enjoy it, but never totally give in to it, or your life will be dark and empty after that feeling has passed. We are humans, and we have evolved to be more than just reproduction machines.

Love VS Marriage

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 04:22:37 GMT

These days, I have so many sentiment about love and marriage, maybe i effected by some cases which happened in my hometown vacation; or it is a long time the date and love are far away from me. I got a little idiotic on it. But, all the time, I appreciate something thoughts like this:

I cannot believe that there are still guys who date a woman and have the nerve to ask her "Do you want to be my girlfriend?". I mean, that's so totally immature, unromantic and clumsy. I would expect this from 12-year-old teenagers, not grown-up adults. It's not like a business contract that should be settled, it's about romantic love. If I have the great privilege of a woman allowing me to date her, I want to let her feel pleasant, comfortable, excited all the time. I want to be charming, gentleman style, treat her like a queen, to bring her into a good mood. If the moment is right, if the mood is good, if the feelings are there, there is no need to ask any more questions, we will both KNOW what we want. And if that's not happening, we can still end the evening with some pleasant conversation, staying friends, and maybe hope for a better moment in the future.

Just an annotation about sex: don't overestimate sex. Romance is much more important than sex. Women always know that, but seems we guys have to learn that over the course of our lifetime. I will always remember my first kiss, but don't ask me about my first sex. Got the point?

I often think, for many people marriage is the goal, not love. Why? How can you even expect to have a romantic marriage life filled with love, if your first goal is marriage? We should look for love, then decide to marry - as a consequence of the mutual love. Marry and hope that the love will follow: that's the way leading into a stale, unhappy rest of lifetime, two partners tied together without passion. That's like running a marriage business, not like a loving family.

Wishes for New Year

Thu, 31 Jan 2008 04:05:49 GMT

Best Wishes For Your Beloved!

My exam has finished, celebrate!!!!

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 13:11:44 GMT

NEW PHOTO

To somebody:

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 07:42:56 GMT

Dear somebody:

Happy birthday to you first!

AppleWoo

3th,Jan

The stagnating tears in the eyes--English & Chinese

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 01:41:53 GMT

The stagnating tears in the eyes (English)
Love, like wind, blows over!
My tears stayed in the eye, dropping down, shining like rain.
When Your sorrowful back gradually disappeared, I closed my eyes, chewing the hopeless despair.
Yes, I have been in love with you hopelessly. Hopelessly, I have been in love with you!
But you left away!
I cut my long hair short, just like cutting the gentleness in my deep heart.
My love, like the rose blooms in early summer, fresh and fragrant. Although this for me is a hitting pain, I am willing to chew it slowly. For in the rose, your breath is still stagnating.
I miss you.
No matter how many mountains and rivers stopped before us, my eyes will follow you through the long distance, but why do not you turn back and show a glance at me?
The wind blows over my pale yet not beautiful face, a poof of smoke followed. Tears staying in my eyes, but they could never drop down. When you disappeared, tears wetted my eyes. I have been in love with you, hopelessly!
Darkness falls just as I have dated him. Shaking endless sadness off, I spent the miserable night. I will never search you out in future, leaving hollow wind wailing through mountains. I am tired and bleak, but I will wait for you for ever!
Maybe I was awfully wrong, wrongly being in love with you.
Have I doomed to endure this torturement just for loving you? Am I destined to drop in the abyss of love? I shouted your name in the wind once and once again. Let all the sorrowful and accumulated tears roll down, flowing away the exhaustion and helplessness in my deep heart.
If it goes like this, I am willing to endure.
You will never understand the sorrow in my deep heart, just as you will never understand why I bloomed for you in that early autumn.
When all the sorrow came to an end, all the despair stagnated in the dream last night!
Away with this complex feeling, many years long long passed!

泪盈于睫，不敢滴落 (Chinese)
爱情，如风，飘过。
　　风中凝结我的泪，飞洒，晶莹，如雨。
　　你忧伤的背影渐行渐远。那一霎那，我闭上眼，咀嚼着自己的无望。
　　是的，我无望地爱上了你，你知道吗？无望地，我爱上了你。
　　但是你走了。
　　我铰掉了缕缕长发，铰掉了一地的柔情。
　　就像夏季里最初的玫瑰，我为你绽放，娇艳而欲滴。虽然于我是铭心刻骨的痛，我却愿意细细品尝。因为，有你的气息，有你的味道和关于你的一点一滴。
　　我想你。
　　无论千山，无论万水。我的目光穿越风尘，与你相依，始终追随你的背影。而你，却为什么不回头看我，为什么？
　　风拂过我并不美丽的苍白容颜，扬起一阵风烟。我的泪呵！盈于睫，却不敢滴落，唯恐模糊了双眼，放你走出我的视线。是的，我爱上了你，无望地。
　　黄昏，终于如约而至，抖落了一层又一层的愁绪。而夜也就这样渡过来了。我再也无法觅到你的身影。夜里，只有山风在呜呜地哭泣，我疲惫而孤单，忧伤而憔悴，可我依然在找寻你。
　　然而，你从不言爱情，从不？
　　也许我真的错了，错在无望地爱上你。
　　是不是爱你，就注定要承受今世的折磨？是不是爱你就注定要跌入爱的深渊？在风中一遍一遍地呐喊你的名字，让积郁太久、太多的泪水肆意流淌，冲去心灵的倦怠与无助？……
　　如果是的话，我愿意！
　　你，永远不会明白那心痛如绞的感觉，就好像你永远不会明白我在那个秋季为你绽放过一样。
　　当所有的狂乱神伤已成为落幕前的最后一眼时，所有绝望与心碎留在了昨夜的梦里……

Walking on Yuan bo yuan Shenzhen . Dec.01.2007